Songs and Stories Sunday 1
Music is the butter to my bread. It is the pea and I am the carrot. We are perfect together. It feeds my soul, and at times it has been the light of my life; reflecting my feelings into my ears and into my soul at times when I could not find the words myself, or when my depression makes it difficult to get out of bed. Music empowers my spirit but there are a certain few that get my positive ions flowing and calm my mind.
For the last few weeks one of those songs has been “The Greatest” by Sia. The song literally repeats "the greatest" a gazillion times and it's awesome. It's my affirmation song that I listen to every morning. I have a tendency to second guess myself or not speak up; feeling that what I have to say isn't insightful. I'm very critical of judgement. I don't believe that I am "the greatest" but "The Greatest" encourages me to be nicer to myself. Like she says,
"Uh-oh running out of breathe, but I
Oh, I, I got stamina
Uh-oh, running now, I close my eyes
Well, oh, I got stamina"
If I keep on running, building up my "stamina" of confidence then I will at some point no longer doubt myself; maybe I can be "the greatest" Carleigh.
If I had an anthem it would be Erykah Badu's "Didn't Cha Know".
"Time to save the world
Where in the world is all the time
So many things I still don't know
So many things I've changed my mind
Guess I was born to make mistakes
But I ain't scared to take the weight
So when I stumble off the path
I know my heart will guide me back"
This line expresses my truth. As a recent grad I am in a period of exploration, solving questions, and discovering new ones. At times I get impatient with myself, thinking that I am not doing enough to get a job or be healthier, but I have to remind myself that it's all a process. I have to be patient and continue to learn.
Lastly, Beyonce has to be included on my empowering list. Queen B has been slaying and exuding confidence since her days with Kelly and Michelle in Destiny's Child. My favorite empowering song by DC is "Independent Women".
"The shoes on my feet, I've bought it
The clothes I'm wearing, I've bought it
The rock I'm rockin', I've bought it
'Cause I depend on me if I want it"
This song keeps me excited about the future. Though I am a broke recent grad, it's just a temporary right of passage. Soon I'll be able to buy my own shoes and clothes; and maybe I'd be able to afford nice enough clothes for a guy to want to "put a ring on it"? I just got to keep my ears open and my soul feed.
What do you listen to for empowerment?